Paradox

I work out but I smoke. I enjoy spending time alone but I do feel lonely. I dont spend money randonly but I bought almost everything that I want. PPL are saying im optimistic but I thinkI'm  quite passive. I work so much when I work but I dont use brain at all after the moment I leave office. All of these are not right, that's how I dont end anywhere.

2016,11,12,10:03 这个点，这个乡下地方在外面混的除了我就是“饿了吗”送夜宵的小哥，还有一对黄昏恋人。我看到身边的女生肚子都慢慢堆起了肥肉，我想或许到老了还是会很讲究形象吧。或许在50岁的时候能把自己嫁出去？

跑完，压完腿，回家学英语，研究平安的方案。