Another sleepless night.
It's 5:45 in the morning. I am now at the lab.
Lately, I tend to write at night and sleep in the day, sounds weird but works for me, since I cannot do anything during the day. Sleep then seems to be a reasonable choice.
It suddenly occurs to me that I may have ADHD, which means I am easily get distracted and cannot concentrate at all. Or maybe it is just another excuse I've found for myself. I don't want to write the dissertation. Of course. Then I just keep avoiding doing it. Things then got worse. Since the time left for me is less and less, in the end, I will be totally freaked out and achieve nothing but regret for the things I've never done.
Since I know myself so well, I should never overestimate myself. The temptation I mean, either from food or SNS. That's why I have to walk away from the cakes, cookies, ice cream, etc. when I was in the supermarket. I know that if I buy any of them, I will finish them just in a day. Crazy. And then I changed my password of douban account and twitter, deleted Wechat, it's like I have cut myself out from the world. Then. I am finally quiet. Not anxious anymore to chat with somebody, since once in a while I don't have the mood in talking. The feeling of connection free actually is so good.
Headache.
I have been struggling on "The taxonomy of CSs" part for so long.. Long enough for me to kill myself or TARONE.
Great. Everybody is gone now. Only me here.
It is actually very nice to write my diaries in English here, since I am too lazy to write it down in my notebook, typing comes natural to me.
So hungry.
Seldom do I have the moments when I am fully aware the fact that I am hungry. Maybe it's because that most of the time I just keep eating...
Oops. Ting just came in. And she was so surprised that I am still here. I told her about my daily schedule. And I asked about hers, she said that she just does have time for sleep. Keeping working day and night! Suddenly I felt a sense of guilt. All right. stop. One more hour and then go to sleep for 4 hours. Starting to work after lunch.
6 days to go. at least 1500 words per day!