I am a slave to the emotion

whenever i am exhausted  I will lose control of my temper easily, and be pissed off in a minute. 

Especially when children are  keeping noising loudly, calling mother, torturing you, the children's father doesnt care about anything just like an ugly and unuseful vase  standing aside.

Once I shouted at my children,  Once I feel very regretful and sorry for that.  I have to admit that I'm a slave to the emotion.  I seem like an indefinite bomb which can explode anytime.  I can't stop it,  just like an endless bad circle keeping going round and round, more like a disease difficult to be cured.  All of these make me feel very disappointed in myself.

How failure I am.  I'm really a loser.  But I don't want this. I want to change. I want to go out of the endless circle. I want to be a new self.

Easier said than done.  Please take real  and concrete action , and stick to it.

From the moment on from now, please smile, calm, gentle and friendly.  To be a good mother, to be a good wife to be a good daughter. The most important thing is to be a good self.