The new found

Today when I drew the family map I have a lot of new found. Before I thought my father gave me a lot of pressure in my childhood. When I did every thing my father said I did not good. Every thing he can find the disadvantages. I should do everything very hard then perfectly my would said I did good. But my father never said my advantages. Until now I do everything I want to do perfectly because my father said it not good. But my father haven't tell me what is good and perfect. So I continue did everything hard and want make them perfectly.

Today when I drew the family members that I found my father has father but he haven't mother. At that moment I can understood my father that he wanted to give me a lot of love but he didn't know the good methods. He only said that I did everything has many disadvantages. Because he haven't the love that no body taught him. I think my father should received a lot of love.