Making a new start!

I was being back home for few days, I always thought I could easily adapt this kind of life than i wished because staying with mom could be better off always going far away from home.

Sometimes, I always sympathize mom's lonely life, and she need to be accompanied with dad or me .I know I am only one she want to take care of. but after 3 year leaving from home, I found we are fond of different lifestyles and circumstances in need. Even though we should be more native with each other, I am anxious to explain repeatedly that she could understand. However, There seemed no excuses upon my demands she would content indeed. Along with my imagination, I could always be with her.

Reality could not allow me to be constantly with her, Nevertheless, dad is always getting busy on his own things. He never frees his leisure time to stay with mom. I know his pressure of his job, family, and his enormously magnificent leadership might drives him sort of crazy. He is undertaking a lot, and so smart to know how the relations work out randomly. Meanwhile, I have to admit this several thousand time in mind, "we have different world values and experiences to reach everything in common!" As I grew up, I have already known how i would be able to pick up this world personally. I usually would not like to accept any advises while their wisdom is jogging on my ears. I ever wished I could be unique one day up, but life goes differently side by side. A lot of pieces facts truthfully make me well-known imaginatively. I am dreaming one day i could never be a student anymore, and I could be a driver, a dishwasher, or even a worker. Any career is not really important for me though. American kids are being kicking out home usually in age 18, but i am up to 21 now. I felt like not understandable with everyone closely surroundings of me. I have to individually arrange my life throughout different cultures and values in this complicated world. I feel like kind of being helpful as I am planning on my own way, so that I could improve a lot.

All the time, I was trying to make life more specific on myself, and just only focus on what I have to concentrate with. Too much complains might always put me staying negative. Thereupon, Making a new start may be not able to obtain a lot of improvements by chance. At least I have to do it as a try.