Where has my dream gone?

This year I will be 26 years old ,which period has nothing successful  to show for . However, the most grievous things I feel is that I still cannot find my way or my direction .Frankly speaking ,  I used to have a ideal, an unrealistic dream.  I wish our society will be better than now someday.I wish all the old people can have a cozy sunset. I wish all the young can have their jobs .I wish all the children ,wherever he or she lives in poor regions or in some unknown corner ,  can learn knowledge in good conditions and grow up healthily and happily. And I wish the people  who lost their children or lost the ability to take care of themselves can be raised better by our society. And I wish our society has no cheat and evil any more.I wish our China will have perfect regime system in all aspects. As is known to us ,this ideal is an old wish which came up  more than two thousand years ago. This is our ancestors' noble dream, and our ancestors exerted all their energies to accomplish the ideal.Nowadays, in our time, we have stronger ability to complete a thing,thus ,why don't we try our best to make our ancestors' dream come true? And actually,we have the capacity to do better than we wish.

However, as my age and experience increases , I realize that I am too young ,too naive. I find I have no capacity and power to change anything,more and more,and even I cannot change myself.I have no money and energy to help a family pull through,to help an old couple who lost their children have a cozy sunset,to help a kid  who has no chance to study in school on account of poverty returns classroom... Gradually,I forget my dream，and then I lost my way , I can't find the meaning that I enter the university and become a  postgraduate . I don't know where to go and what kind of person I want to be .I am like a boat in the sea which can't see the lighthouse,go with the flow.Though, I still insist on trying my best to explore my way, and wish someday I can break the confusion and go out of the dilemma.Best wishes to myself.