I have decided to stop trying to

For the past 36 years, I have been trying hard to look pretty, elegant, cute, adorable, friendly, beautiful, feminine, warm, which is the typical image a lady is expected to maintain in life.

Now, I have decided to be anything but feminine and pretty. I want to be me, be free, be strong, be improvisational, be edgy, be bold, be cold, be neutral, be fun, be interesting, be versatile, be risky.