random thoughts in the air

i was taken over by fear and insecurity.
case in point: should never make decisions when desperate or terrified.
tattoo: sine meet
i should move in with him without fear and not marry him without any fear.
be spiritually brave and independent.
scenario 1: move mid december, one more month left, seem too soon.
scenario 2: move in when i find a job next semester . seems like the right thing to do.

wish to tour around britain after watching the documentaries. (2 weeks? )
wish to live in paris for a period of time (one school term? ) studying art /art history. this can wait till i get a handle on french.

i wish i could support myself while traveling in europe, possible freelancing computer programming?

long term wise, i wish to have a phd in machine learning/ artificial intelligence.
so i need to find job and do projects toward that direction within the next four years. (before gre expires)

the rest of the time during this term; finish school work, practice guitar/piano, leet code + deep learning
next term: finish nano degree , look for job

go to Britain end of april.

can go to lima and stay for longer time