说克2020-1-7

Say I want to investigate this problem of the mind, which is “me,” my mind: why it is conditioned, how deeply it is conditioned, and whether it can be wholly free from that conditioning. Only then can I have a right relationship with another human being, because my conditioning divides me and brings about a division between you and me. My image of “me” is the dividing factor. So I must first find out who the investigator is. Is it one of the many fragments of the “me” that is investigating—one part, one fragment saying, “I will investigate the different fragments,” which is the “me” that is conditioned? So one part assumes the authority and capacity to investigate the other parts. One part is broken up and against the other parts. So is that investigation when one part assumes the authority to investigate the other fragments?

That is not investigation. It is a conclusion that says, “I will investigate.” Do you see this? It is a conclusion. And that conclusion brings about a division. So to investigate there must be no conclusion, no hypothesis. The meaning of hypothesis is foundation, and if you start from a foundation, which is inevitably a conclusion, and investigate with that conclusion, it brings about a division, and therefore it is not an investigation. If you see this clearly, you will proceed further.

【海译】比如，我想探索心智——亦即“自我”问题：为什么心饱受束缚？它的束缚有多深？心能不能彻底解脱束缚？心唯有解脱了束缚，我才能与别人建立正常的关系，因为束缚分裂了我的心灵，从而导致你我之间的分裂。而我心中的“自我”形象，就是分裂要素。所以，我必须首先弄明白：我内心那个“探索者”究竟是谁？“自我”被分裂成很多碎块，其中一个碎块在探索，并宣称：“我要研究其他碎块。”所谓其他碎块，其实也是“自我”，而凡“自我”必是受缚的，难道不是这样吗？所以，“自我”的一个碎块自诩为权威且有能力研究其他碎块；这个碎块从“自我”中分裂出来，与其他碎块对立。当某碎块自诩权威，去探索其他碎块，那还是探索吗？

那不是探索，只是你心里预设了一个定论，在那里宣称：“我要探索！”你明白了吗？内心的“探索者”，只是一个定论，而定论必然导致心灵的分裂。所以，要探索真相，你不能预设定论，不能有假设。假设的意义在于，它是你的立脚石，而立脚石就必然是预设的定论；如果你从这个立脚石出发，揣着定论去探索，则会导致内心的分裂，所以这不是真正的探索。如果你看清了这一点，你就能前进得更远。

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我不太喜欢用mind心智这个译名，所以勉强用了一次。所谓fragment，part、碎片、区块……就是分裂的人格，一个人同时有几个人格，代表不同的定论，相互摩擦冲突。

我以为，克笔下的thinker/thought，controller/controlled，experiencer/experience，investigator/investigated……这些概念组，就是指这些，与佛家的“能思/所思”相似。我花了好几个月才明白克的thinker/thought，其中佛家的“能所”概念帮了忙，同时也成了障碍和束缚。所以，我赞成@理明信深 的话，不要用佛教的概念做类比，那就是立脚石，就是定论，就是束缚。

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关于压抑，比如，我说错了话，做错了事，突然意识到了，此时意识层面上就有两个人格（或曰区块、碎片）在对立：代表评判规范的“道德的我”，批评、压抑做错了事的“错误的我”。

比如，我突然陷入了情绪低潮，心情压抑，不知所以。很可能是潜意识里的两个人格在冲突，比如有一个代表社会评判体系、具有压倒性力量的“道德自我”，在批评嘲笑打压另一个表现不佳的自我。因为我认同了社会的某些道德范式，所以在我内心深层产生了“道德自我”与“真实自我”的分裂、冲突，且道德自我黑云压城，难以排遣，所以我就陷入了情绪压抑。