your leaving,my life

I can't imagine how tedious my life and I Would be without your existence?

我在此刻写下了这句话。

where are you?

I know you haven't any choice to defend at all .

I understand you have your own business to create instead I am haunting you like a disgusting bedbug .

这是我一个人在夜里不断对自己说的话。

但我还是不能接受没有你的日子，也无法忍受从此堕落下去。

thinking some moive plots,I swelled a hard steamed bread in a breath.And keeping whispering: kill me... kill me.. and leave ... remember..I .. I love ... love...you. Rashing out like a maniac.

like a ghosting