My dear walnut tree
How are you ? My dear walnut tree.
You looked almost dead in cold winter ,
You suffered badly from terrible pests in summer.
Year after year, You survived.
How indomitable you are.
Here comes , another spring.
How calm and peaceful you are.
April 3rd, 2020.
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Background :
In the age of 34 years old, from time to time , I feel I have failed my life.
I have nothing currently:money, marriage, career...I can’t help my family when they are in trouble ,I even need them to support me when they do not have much themselves.
In this beginning stage of mid age, not gaining anything, but already start to losing, losing my youth, my energy, my passion , my opportunities...
So sometimes , deep down in my heart , I’m suffering from the sense of failure. When look at the walnut tree in front me, I feel that he understand how difficult life is, how difficult it is to stay alive.