序言(来者之路)-6
After this, my humanity remained silent. Something happened to my spirit, however, which I must call mercy. My speech is imperfect. Not because I want to shine with words, but out of the impossibility of finding those words, I speak in images. With nothing else can I express the words from the depths.
此后,我的人性一直保持沉默。但是,我的灵性却发生了什么,我必须寻求怜悯。我的话语并不完美。并不是因为我想要闪烁其辞,而是找不到合适的话语,我不得不用具相表达(图形、声音,往往具有比语言文字更强大直截的穿透力量)。否则,我无法将来自深度的语言表达出来。
The mercy which happened to me gave me belief hope, and sufficient daring, not to resist further the spirit of the depths, but to utter his word. But before I could pull myself together to really do it, I needed a visible sign that would show me that the spirit of the depths in me was at the same time the ruler of the depths of world affairs.
降临在我身上的怜悯给我带来信念、希望和足够的勇气,使我不再阻抗深度精神,而是讲出深度精神的话。但是,在我付诸行动之前,我需要一个清晰的信号,向我显示我身上的深度精神同时也是世事的深层主宰。
In reality; now, it was so: At the time when the great war broke out between the peoples of Europe, I found myself in Scotland,22 compelled by the war to choose the fastest ship and the shortest route home. I encountered the colossal cold that froze everything, I met up with the flood, the sea of blood, and found my barren tree whose leaves the frost had transformed into a remedy. And I plucked the ripe fruit and gave it to you and I do not know what I poured out for you, what bitter-sweet intoxicating drink, which left on your tongues an aftertaste of blood.
现实情况是:当大战在欧洲各国之间爆发的时候,我在苏格兰,迫于战事,我必须选一艘最快的船和最短的路线回家。我遇到了将一切都冻住的巨大寒流,也看到了洪水和血海,并找到了那棵不结果实的树,霜已经将树的叶子转变成药物。我把已经成熟的果实摘下来送给你们,我不知道我倒给你们的又苦又甜令人陶醉的饮料是什么,会在你们舌头上留下血腥的余味。
(这样的梦启,并非罕见,即所谓的“共时性”。人类曾经遭受的灾难,本来无有穷尽,彼此有着大量的相似性,所以,这种所谓的预见或者感应,也许只是过往记忆的复苏,当然,这种过往,抑或是人类的上溯历生历劫、早已灰飞烟灭的轮回,而并非属于今生和狭隘的本轮人类历史,而这,可以归入集体无意识的范畴。种种灾难,愈演愈烈,开启了潘多拉魔盒,人类将进入越来越深的苦痛。我们不要自作多情地认为,这是对我们的警告,我们如此渺小,根本不值得大自然费心。地球,无须人类拯救。没有人类的世界,或许将更加美丽。我们真得费点心思,赶紧拯救自己吧!)
Woe betide those who live by way of examples! Life is not with them. If you live according to an example, you thus live the life of that example, but who should live your own life if not yourselfr So live yourselves.
灾难会降临在依照别人的方式为榜样而生活的人身上!(对于他人腐败的生活,在谩骂恶的同时,感到羡慕吗?感到嫉妒吗?感到得不到的愤怒吗?是否浑身颤抖,咬牙切齿,欲望张扬。果如是,我们比他们更加下贱。而炽盛的力比多无处发泄,只能转化为熊熊内火,烧灼自己,祸害他人。)真正的生活并不属于这些人。如果你根据一个榜样去生活,那么你活出的就是榜样的生命,但是如果你不活出自己的生命,那么应该由谁活出你的生命?所以,活出你自己吧。
(耶稣说:“我就是道路、真理、生命,若不藉着我,没有人能到父那里去。你们若认识我,也就认识我的父。从今以后,你们认识他,并且已经看见他。”(《约翰福音》14章6~7节)这个榜样,或许是幸福的人、成就的人,或许是神,或许是圣人,甚至还有一些享尽繁华的恶人,多么美好!都令我们心向往之。但我们只能做好自己,能够学到的,不是他们的结果,而是“身口意”所造之因。“众生畏果,菩萨畏因”,敬畏因果,唯当修因,但因果深不可测,即便世间法的“身口”,哪怕一模一样,结果也是大相径庭,而“意”更是无踪迹可觅,我们还能学吗?所以,初发心修因,未有智慧,但在一个“定”字上下功夫,从世间法的“善恶”做起,对治障碍,不问结果,一切关注于结果的模仿,非但毫无意义,都是造作,有害无益。)