成功的完成了自己的第一次的Ice Break演讲，也借此机会回忆了对自己的性格及生活选择影响最深刻的一件事，7年前在澳洲的那场换宿旅行。借此机会，重温了一遍当时感受，又翻到了当时记的随笔，遂和今日的演讲稿放在一起，以资纪念。

2014年的随笔

2014的随笔

2014年的随笔

没有办法把旅行中的每一个细节都记下来，于是我写一些杂谈，一些片段，来纪念那些走过的日子。

那是2013年6月，大三的暑假，在半年前试过和朋友短暂的泰国游之后，这次是正式的第一次一个人的出国游。

记得那会是我在澳洲最慞惶的日子，从小英语是最差科目、四级都没过的我，离开了友伴姐姐这一条语言拐杖，就开始变的残疾彳亍不敢前行， 再加之离开了第一家host事无巨细的照顾那种超级温暖的环境，主人又David因为太过担心我，一直在催促我制定接下来的计划，并让我尽快买好回程机票他们才能放心，导致本身来计划随性走下去的我开始焦虑的不知所措，也为前路的未知惴惴不安起来，害怕接下来一个人走的路……面对着下一站的host还没有找好，就要到一个完全陌生又没有接应的境况，之前完全在依赖伙伴的我，只能胆颤着边走边看。

初到悉尼。

悉尼

BOOKING上找了一家最便宜的青旅，25刀的15人的男女的混合间。推门进去，阴暗的房间里满是白人的面孔，我默默放下75升的大包跑去客厅寻找熟悉的亚洲脸，想要寻找些安全感，去了解下这个繁华又匆忙的“类首都”城市，可这个时间只是有几个慵懒的拿政府救济的澳洲本地青年，抱着青旅提供的速溶咖啡在阳台晒太阳，阳光有点刺眼，一个黑人小伙和我打了一声招呼，对自己英语水平底虚的我尴尬的还以一个微笑，然后迅速把头低下去.....这些细小的记忆片段和那个昏暗旅馆的光影交织在一起。

早晨

想把之前买的肉肠从冰箱中拿出来，煎一下当做早饭吃，却发现因为没有放在带锁的储物箱里，早不知被谁拿了去，无奈的轻叹一声，将青旅提供的免费牛奶底儿倒空，再烤上两片free的吐司，涂抹些黄油，草草吃了便带着相机出门去往附近的达令港。早就听说达令港有世界上最大的IMAX影院想要去看，看到28刀的票价，还标了buy 1 free1，想想自己一个人去看未免也太不划算，便到处溜达看看有没有落单的小伙伴，问了一两次未遂之后，摸摸自己并不饱满的口袋就只能放弃这个事情了，逛逛港口看看风景也罢。

达令港 库克船长的船

逛到海港的船边，看到一个外国小伙子在吃力的自拍，努力的想要把自己和那条漂亮的船都框进相机里，热心且无聊的我在旁边端详了一阵子后，就主动请缨上前帮忙拍照，在切换了不同角度不同姿势后，小“摄影师”我把自己的作品交给了小伙，得到了他满意的微笑，为表感谢小伙去请我喝杯咖啡，于是乎，两人便拿着咖啡，开始绕着港口聊"人生"。

事实上这所谓的聊人生就只是两个英语都小学水平的人的鸡同鸭讲，努力的搜刮自己有限的词汇量试图让对方听懂，并伴以夸张的手势形态加肢体动作的解释。就这样“聊”了一下午，得知小伙是伊拉克人，来这边投奔堂哥工作，顺道在没话说的时候，还亲切询问了伊拉克在被美国侵略前后的人民生活水平和经济状况。想想当时两个人发音和单词量也是让人迷醉，有时候讲一句话需要他拿他的手机将阿拉伯语言翻译成英语，我再用我的手机把英语翻译成中文，一句话这样折腾三次出来的也不知道是什么鬼样子，为了聊两句天有时候两个人捣鼓半天也还是弄不懂，然后只好无奈耸耸肩，相对无言只能傻笑。

短暂的几小时，两人语言障碍的人，还来得及建立深厚的友谊就被日渐西沉的落日所打断，

"据说火车站附近这一块晚上治安挺乱的"

"今天过得很愉快，那么下次有缘再见"

"嗯，有缘再见"。

这段当然是我脑补的，我肯定不可能告诉他"因为我觉得和你在一起也没有感觉很安全，就这么早回去了"，他也不可能说出什么“有缘再见”这种明知再见无绝期的话。

于是，两个两个来自不同国度，说着不同语言的同龄人，因为拍一张照片而度过一个下午，然后再各自分开，聚散天涯，重回完全不同的世界，就像是满桌佳肴中混迹的一盘西红柿炒蛋，不浓不烈不咸不淡，却能让我在多年后的再回忆时，依然能够完整的场景重现，大概这就是在焦虑的日子里，一个温馨下午如老友的陌生人带给我的力量。

朋友与时光

那几个独自一人在悉尼的时光，平时很少哭的我，在这个并不敞亮的青旅里，和一个性情很温润的朋友聊天，也许是依托于夜幕的掩饰，也许是因为他那让人心安的声音，我终于在说起近况时，憋不住委屈哭的不能自己，对于前路的未知的惶恐终于像是找到一个出口，在这个朋友问询下一一托底：不能告诉爸妈我这一个人的旅程，为了让他们安心，我说的是自己一路都有旅伴，在澳洲唯一的一个朋友并没有带给我什么精神上的鼓励，匆匆见了一面后便忙于他的生活....

我似乎絮絮叨叨的说了很多，而朋友也认真听着，他并没有在这个事上多说什么，巧妙的把话题引开，和我说了些其他的有趣的事情，没多久我也便和他笑成一团，笑容和着泪水沾了一脸，心情明媚些，便沉沉的睡去了，那几日的时光，就在这白天的“强颜欢笑”，每晚的“焦虑崩溃”和朋友再次逗笑后循环往复的行进着，直到我找到了一家新的在蓝山的一家咖啡馆里的host，这段“与自己独处的时间”才算告一段落。

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这件事到现在我仍然记忆犹新，我也十分感激当时朋友不嫌弃的每日听我哭诉的陪伴，我一个人独行的事情并没敢告诉其他太多人，但是因为这个朋友，我的悲伤和焦虑分享给他，减了一半，而他，借给了我他的快乐，帮我度过了那段内心艰难的日子。

这篇文章，用来回忆独行时的日子，也用来感谢那个当时愿意陪伴我的朋友。

很多时候，在旅行中，我们能记住的，并不是那些美丽的风景，更多的是那些美丽的人和美丽的心灵。

我的我的“外国爸爸”David

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2020年10月27，关于我的《how i become who I am》演讲稿：

Hello, everyone, my name is Atia. I'm really glad to introduce myself here. I'm from inner Mongolia and I'm working in the CDTO apartment as a product manager.

**Most people who know someone by their job, their age, their family, for me, I prefer knowing someone by their experience. What kind of things make them? And what kind of personality influences their choice? **

I want to share a story about how I became who I am now, and what things have the greatest influence on me.Therefore, through my experience, I hope that you can meet me in a three-dimensional way.

When I was 21 years old, I was a junior, and I made a decision that I wanted to go to Australia to do help exchange.

Yes, help exchange, who heard it before? Good. Nobody

Let me explain it.

**The first time I saw this world was in a book-duzhe. When I was in high school. **

It introduced a way to come to another country and do some work to exchange food and accommodation.

Until the third year of college, I felt that I was ready.So, I went on my way, carrying my 75 Liter hiking bage. It's really heavy, actually, like that tall.Then, I came to Australia on summer vacation. I stayed there for nearly 2 months, and experienced 4 types of host.

One of them is a very warm-hearted host. He took me to the friends' house, zoo, chocolate factory and science Museum.

He and his wife came to visit me after I returned to China and studied in UK as well. They came all the way down here just for me. What a nice person.

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Besides, I worked in a cafe. People there have strange religions, but their food is excellent.

蓝山yellow咖啡馆

I also stayed with a captain who had a bad disease. When he learned he was going to die, he quit his job and sold all the belongings to buy a boat, then he started sailing on the sea. The captain's experience is very inspiring to me. Also, the days I spent on the boat are really a kind of peaceful and happy commemoration.

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Maybe you will think, what a beautiful day, however, any good time comes with some hard things.Of course, I had a very hard time there.

After leaving my first host, I began to travel alone.I didn't have a partner, and I didn't find a place to stay. More importantly, my parents don't know that, they thought I had a big sister accompanying me.

Also, my English was really poor at that time, so I can only use these words when I come to restaurants: I want this, this, and this. I have just arrived in a new city - Sydney, staying in a very chaotic youth hotel. None of them are Chinese. No one can talk with me.

澳洲的2个月

Can you imagine? A young girl who travels to another country alone for almost 2 months, and can't find the next distinction and next host, she has language barrier, and can not let her parents find the truth.

** I was completely freaked out in those days, and I was under a lot of pressure.Every evening, I called my friends, crying and crying.**

Now, 7 years have passed, and I can still remember how I survived those lonely and hopeless days. This experience made me stronger and more confident, I believe I can stay well in any strange environment.

Furthermore, I have become open-minded, and I like to try everything I have never tried before, just because I have seen the different lifestyles and different experiences.

I hope I could be a generous person with no judgment, no criticism and no stereotype thinking, just like the people I met.