我是谁

I seems to be aware of my problems, it is that i don't chrish my chance to speak. For family or friends, i always follow my emotion to speak anything it want to express.

我似乎意识到自己的问题，那就是我没有珍惜自己的时间，每一次发言的机会。对于家人和朋友，我经常跟随着自己的情绪去说任何它想说的。

However, that let me lose many chances to listen them, and after talk, i will lapse into self-accusations about why i always give others advise with the condition that i  am not still satified about myself and they don't ask my advice.

然而，这让我错失很多聆听他人表达的机会，并且每一次交谈过后，我都会因为自己为什么又没有忍住给他人提意见深深陷入自责，而且别人并没有问我的意见啊。

What i am? This question always confused me since 2023. I thought maybe i am  what i talk and what i did，so what i am depends on what i really want me to be, and then that should be my compass to guide me how to talk, how i do.

关于我是谁？这个问题从2023年起就一直困扰着我，甚至让我觉得自己越活越虚。我想现在也许找到了答案吧。我是谁，我应该是我说的话，我做的事。所以我是谁取决于我想成为谁，而我想成为什么样的自己，应该像指南针一样指引着我如何去说，如何去做。

Native automatic navigation system is very efficient, but it points to different direction from my compass, so delibrate practice is necessary for me.

原生的自动导航系统（原生脑）是非常高效，它通常第一个反应，但是它又经常和我指南针指向不同的方向（通常是更为保护小我做的一些应激反应）。也因此我是如此需要刻意练习。

Of curse i know that this way is beset with  difficulties, but i am tired of following the crowd. Do not scard to endless of truth, every further step makes cheeriness.

当然我知道，想要改变自己所言所行这条路困难重重，但是对于随波逐流我已经过了30多年，也着实已经厌倦了。

别怕前路漫漫，进一寸有一寸的欢喜。