Why did I become confused

I don't know how long ago，

I am full of curiosity about the world.

Everything is amazing.

But now I'm not interested in them.

I don't know how long ago,

I'm full of expectations for life.

Everything is beautiful,

But now I don't want to fantasize about the future.

I don't know when.

I became confused.

Can I retrieve what I lost?

Why did I become confused