I wish you know

“If you, even you, had only known on this day what would bring you peace-but now it is hidden from your eyes.” ---Luke 19:42

Jesus entered Jerusalem with such force that the whole city was shaken. However, there is a monstrous God, a proud Pharisee, who looked godliness and justice on the surface, but whitewashed tombs.

What is it that has blinded me in my days? Have I a stranger God? I don’t speak of hideous monsters, but of ruling over my nature. God has done me three times or four times to face a god of this stranger; I know to surrender to God, to abandon it, but I never did it. I bite my gums to get through, but I am still in thrall to this stranger god. I see nothing that gives me peace. It is a terrible thing that we should be able, on the one hand, to get the holy spirit receive us without hindrance, while on the other hand we should be continually reproaching ourselves before God.

“I wish you know.” ---God touched the hearts of men directly in the tears of Jesus. It serves you right. God holds us accountable for what we cannot see.

“The thing is hidden from your eyes.”—because we have not surrendered. How tragic that “Long overdue” is? A door shut by God is never opened again, but he opened other doors and reminded us that some doors we closed and others we didn’t. Our imagination must not be dull. When God brings up the past, we don’t have to be afraid. Let the past be recalled. It is God’s servant to rebuke, discipline a repent. God will turn that “long overdue” into a good education of the future.

Dear God, I am still vague about the direction to choose. The decision is far beyond my judgment. I don’t doubt you, but everything is so completely hidden.   （20190915）