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我今天就30岁了
so i am 30 today
我不知道为什么
and i always ，i dom`t know why,
我总是认为到了３０岁
i always thought like something huge is gonna nappes
生活中会有巨大的改变
when i`m 30like ,
有点像千禧年的感觉
kind of like that Ｙ２Ｋ thing,
当２０００年到来的时候
when the year 2000 came in
大家都认为会有大事件发生
everyone thought like something crazy,
像是世界末日来临之类的事情
like the world`s gonna shut down or something
我以前总以为３０岁太老了
but always like oh,that`s so old,i`m gonna
我不知道我当时怎么想的
i don`t know, i don`t know what i was thinking
但从２５岁到２８岁是我人生中最困惑的一段时期
but i think 25 to 28 were my most difficult confusing years.
我觉得可能是我当模特的工作压力造成的
i felt like maybe it`s the pressure of my job being a model,
我觉得我需要永葆青春
i felt like i needed to look and stay young forever
我讨厌变老
i didn`t ,i hated getting older .
我讨厌别人谈论我的年龄
i hated people talking about my age ,
为此我对自己施加了太多的压力
i put so much pressure on myself for that
当时的我会觉得在３０岁之前
and i don`t ,it`s probably a mixture of me feeling
我得拥有像样的生活
like i needed to have my like together.
我得达到一定的高度
and i needed to be at a certain point,
在事业上取得一定的成功
and be a certain amount of successful by 30
但当时我并不觉得我正逐渐接近那个目标
and i didn`t feel like i was getting there yet
所以我需要让自己看起来年轻一点
so i needed to act younger ,maybe ,
我不知道
i don`t know .
我当时感到很害怕
um ,but i was terrified.
我觉得有句老话说的对
and it`s really true when they say it just gets better.
等你到了30岁或30多岁的时候
一切都会变好的
like your 30`s ,in your 30`s,
things just get better.
但你会真正了解自己 虽然听起来陈词滥调
you know who you are as cliche as it is.
但我确实能感觉到这点
i truly ,truly feel that
如果你是生活遭遇困境的20多岁或青少年
so if you`re struggling as a twenty year old or a teenager,
请明白一切都会变好的
just know it`s gonna get better
无论你是否完成了生活中的很多目标
you`re gonna become okay with yourself
你都会更加认可自己
whether you`ve accomplished many things or not.
你会从骨子里感受到那种舒服的感觉
you get to really be comfortable in your skin
并对现在的自己感到高兴
and just be happy with where you are at life
你知道了你在乎的人是谁
you learn who matters
你知道了你想要跟什么样的人在一起
you learn who you wanna surround yourself with.
你没必要故意向他人炫耀 或故作冷静
you don`t need to impress people or trying be cool
我把这种感觉描述为
you`re just ,yeah ,i don`t know ,i just,i would describe it
内心的舒适
as like comfort,
内心的舒适 自信 和 满足
and comfort ,confidence and content maybe.
尽管大家都在说
i think as much as everyone says like ,you know,
要为了你的梦想而努力拼搏
go for your dreams ,work hard ,
这是我的职业信条
in which i do believe career-wise
但有的时候你需要快乐一点 认可现状
sometimes you just gotta be like happy ,like maybe this is it .
认清现在是没问题的 我已经足够好了
and this is okay ,i`m enough ,i`m good enough and
生活很美好
life is great.
当然 为了获得更多 你可以 更加努力
obviously,you can always strive for more and work haeder
但在同时
but at the same time,
你需要让自己快乐
you need to be happy
认可自己的成功 回顾自己一路的收获
and look at your successes and look how far you came
不要让任何人对你说
and don`t let anybody tell you
你还不够好 或者你的年龄太大了 不适合干这个
you`re not good enough or you`re too old for this
因为你可以继续前进
cause you can keep going
但是如果你不想继续前进
but if you don`t wanna keep going
或是拼死拼活的做某些事情
and trying hard and doing things
那也没关系
that`s ok ,too
我不知道该怎么说
just ,i don`t know
但我觉得现在的我很好
i just feel like i`m in a good place.
今年发生了好多事情
a lot has happened this year .
我29岁的一年 尤其是快结尾的时候
my 29th years specifically ,the end of the year
我都快忙疯了
has been insane
但是29岁和30岁这两年
but 29 and 30
我感觉自己改变和成长了很多
like i just feel like i`ve changed and growan a lot
我学会了真正的接受自己
and i`ve just learned to really accept myself
对于现在的自己 对于我的年龄
and just be happy with who i am in my skin and at the age
和我正在做的事情而感到高兴
i`m in with what i`m doing
过去有很多事情特别困扰我
things used to bother me so so much like ,
比如说我常常会屏蔽一些评论关键词
there are so many comments i used to block .
在我24岁的时候
i used to actually block all the ages
我屏蔽了评论的所有关于年龄的评论
i think when i hit 24.
因为我不想让人们谈论我的年龄
because i didn`t want people to talk about my age .
因为我想保持年轻 想看起来年轻
cuz i just i want to be young and look young
做一个年轻的模特
and you know ,be this young model.
当然这些屏蔽关键词我早就取消了
whole lot is obviously removed now.
我已经可以接受 而且我自己也很开放地谈论我地年龄
i`m fine with that and i talk about my age openly
这样做让我感觉好多了
and i feel so much better than i can do that
我不知道过去为什么那么做
i don`t know what was holding.
好吧 我知道我为什么那么做
well i do you know what was holding me back,
但是我讨厌我过去的那种做法
but i hate that i did that
因为你知道了我过去
cause you know as much as i was like
做自己 做想做的事情
be who you are ,do you want
因为我穿着和做事都比较我行我素
cause like i was dressing and doing things i wanted to do
尽管有些时候 人们对我感到失望
evern though people sort of put me down for that sometimes.
但我把我生活中很重要的一部分都隐藏起来
i was hiding a big part of my life
并没有展现出真实的自我
and i wasn`t truly opening up about who i am
以及透露当时困扰我的事情
and like things i was struggling with
一想到过去我屏蔽了那些东西 我就感觉当时太蠢了
i just think it`s so stupid that i`ve blocked all those things.
现在我如果看到了我不喜欢的评论
and now if i like get things i don`t like reading
或者直接黑我的 那种没有建设性的批评意见
or like straigut up hate ,not constructive criticism
我只会一笑而过
i kind of just laugh
它们不会像以前那样困扰我了
it doesn`t bother me as much anymore
我基本上什么样的评论都读过
i pretty much read every typr of comment there is about me
所以现在没有什么可以让我动摇的
so nothong fazes me .
那些负面评论要么只是谎言
and either things are just straight up not true
要么即使是事实 也是我可以接受的事实
Or if they are true ,then I’ve accepted the fact.
这就是我，这是真实的，所以无所谓
That this is me ,this is who I am and yeah,it’s true whatever.
这就是我的生活
This is my life
或是遇到那种没有任何事实依据
Or if it’s just straight up unsolicited hate
直接就来黑我的
With no truth behind it
我只会设身处地的为他们着想
I just try to think about the other person now
比如也许他们现在的生活很糟糕
Like maybe they’re just in a bad place
也许他们对某些事情感到不满意
Maybe they’re not happy with something
然后把这种情绪投射到了你的身上
And they’re projecting it on you
因为有句老话说的对，快乐的人们不会无缘无故地
Because it is true people say like happy people won’t really
发泄自己的仇恨情绪
Just like spew hate for no reason
我不太清楚
So I don’t know
但我试图去理解他们
I just try to understand that
也许这就是他们黑我的原因
Maybe that’s why they’re asking it
没关系
Posen’t matter
我不像以前那样在乎了
I just like,don’t cate anymore
我并不在乎
I don’t care
我就是我
I am who I am
感觉每隔十年你都会越来越不在乎这些负面的东西
Feel like you give less f ‘’’ke every decade
你越来越不在乎这些东西
Like you just have less to give
你变得更加保持自我
And you’re just more and more yourself
照这个速度
And at this rate
等我80岁的时候，我可能比我奶奶还要坚强
I’m gonna be more savage than nana at age 80
当我24、25岁的时候
When I was 24,25
我总是希望我能再次变成16 ，17 ，18岁
I alway was like oh i wish i was 16,17,18again
我一直有这种想法
I always kept thinking about that
老想着这事 想把自己打造成那个年龄
And dwelling on that and like wanting to portray that age
但现在我知道我永远无法回到那个年龄
But now I would never go back to that age
或更年轻的时候
Or any age younger
我不会再有那样的想法或是不安全感
Um I love not having those thoughts and insecurities
也不会太过在乎他人的看法
And caring so much about what people think
以前太过在乎以至于会控制我的生活
And to the point where they would control my lift
导致我不愿意出门
I wouldn’t want to leave my house
这种想法是没有意义的
And there’s no point anyways
因为无论你如何衷心的期望
Because you can’t turn back the time
你都无法让时间倒流
No matter how much you think about it
所以你还不如保持现在的你
So you might as well be present
做你自己 放松一下 享受人生旅程
Be yourself and just relax and enjoy the ride
但与此同时，如果你现在正在经历遮盖问题
But at the same time,if you’re going through that right now
因为很多都跟我谈过类似的话题
Because I talked to a lot of you guys that are
你先需要知道这事正常的
Just know it’s normal
只要善待自己处理好
Just be kind to yourself,deal with it
认识到一切都会变好的就行
And know it’s gonna get better
你会发现真我
You’re gonna find your self
你会更加爱自己
You’re going to begin to love yourself
爱现在的你，接受你，永远不会成为别人
For who you are and who you’re not
和不会达到某种高度的事实
What you’re hever gonna be
但没关系的
And that’s ok
应该会很不错的
Should be good
也许我只是看不清，也许两者兼有
Or maybe I can’t see as good or maybe it’s a bit of both
我不知道
I don’t really know
但我注意到我最近开始这么做
But I just noticed that I started doing it recently
这个安顿是指我自己，还有我周围的环境
Both in myself and in my surroundings
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