Call me by your name

- You're too smart not to know, how rare,how special, what you two had was.

- Oliver was Oliver.

- Because it was him. Because it was me.

- Oliver may be very intelligent, but he …

- No … He was more than intelligent. What you two had, had everything and nothing to do with intelligence. He was good, and you were both lucky to have found each other, because you too are good.

- I think he was better than me. He was better than me.

- I'm sure he'd say the same thing about you …

- This is shit, to say the same thing.

- … which flatters you both. When you least expect it. Nature has cunning ways of finding our weakeat spot. Just remember I am here. Right now you may not want to feel anything. Maybe you never want to feel anything. And maybe it's not to me that you'll want to speak about these things. But feel something you obviously did. Look, you had a beautiful friendship,maybe more than a friendship. And I envy you. In my place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away, to pray that their sons land on their feet. I am not such a parent. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster, that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty, and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything. What a waste!

Have I spoken out of turn? Then I'll say one more thing. It will clear the air. I may have come close, but I never had what you two had. Something always held me back, or stood in the way. How you live your life is your business. Just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart is worn out, and as for your body, these comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now there's sorrow, pain. Don't kill it, and with it the joy you're felt.

                                ----CALL ME BY YOUR NAME