They know nothing about me

I always think it's my fault that can't make them stay,but now i dont think so.It's their fault,coz they can not understand me,can not find my interesting point,can not realize how amazing am i.what a shame on them.How stupid am i to blame on myself all the time.

But i still hope he can come to me again,i just can not understand and accept the fact that he just left me like this,without any sigh,any explaix.why?So many why is around in my mind,why he ignores me like this?i hate him.he is a jerk.

If i meet him again,i will hit his face.i really want to do that.

This summer holiday is still boring,without any fresh.i wanna start my new term and study hard again.i dont like staying on the bed every day.i hate it.i wanna go to see sea or go to grassfiled.But not have the passion like last summer anymore.I dont know why,just feel like lacking a real passion or desire.i just look at the computer and not decide yet.can not go forever.I feel like the life is so boring without any meaning.