搞不清

我的手中握着生活，当我的手不停地颤抖时，发现生活被我扭曲了模样。蓦然发现原来是我一直在折腾我自己的生活。 

I hold life in my hand, and when my hand keeps trembling, I find that life is distorted by me. Suddenly found that I had been tossing about my own life.