2019-08-28

He: Is there a time that you would be home so one of my friends could drop off your stuff?

Me: Packed in a box, drop in front door. Ring and money inside?

He: Yes ma’am. Tomorrow?

Me: 12-4PM I m at home.Yes.

He: Okay.

Me: Ask your friend, do not talk with kids’ grandparents, just put a label there, For XXX. I didn’t tell no one in this house. Just want to keep myself away from trouble.

He: I understand.

Me: Thank you.

He: Of course. Let me know if there’s anything else I can do for you.

Me: Application papers in the box too? I need that badly.

He: It’s in there. At the bottom of the box. Once you fill it out, if you mail it to me, I can ask my friend if he can put you ahead of the waiting list.

Me: If I mail them to you? Hmmm, can’t just tell him my name XXX?

He: I suppose I could do that.

Me: Save time. Do you know where I suppose to send these paperworks?

He: I believe the address is on the form. If it’s not, let me know, and I will get the address for you.

Me: I think that is all I need, thank you very much for your time and your kindness. You have my blessings for everything. I will not bother you unless I have to if any unexpected things pop up.

Me: You have had a very difficult life Sofia. I want to be here for you. I care about you deeply. That will never change. If you ever need a place to go, money, or A friend, I would like to be here for you. This is up to you though. I don’t want to hurt you anymore than I already have.

Me: I don’t want to be “special” in your friends list, I believe you already have some, I don’t need that. My life is ok, I am stronger than you thought, I cry sometimes that is just my way to take out the bad feelings, just like, you need alone time or long sleep to release the stress, I don’t have alone time either be able to sleep much since I got kids. Crying doesn’t hurt nobody else. I appreciate your care, but I am the one need a lot of space and long time to heal, so I am sorry I don’t want to contact you again. I don’t want to go back on Facebook either. Memory is everywhere. In September I may start work full time, so getting a regular apartment will not be difficult for me. I also paid 5 more driving classes, I will spare no effort to get my driving license this year. Once I have that I will buy a crappy car :), so everything will get better. I truly thank you for your help.