when u alone

it's night and all the light shutter down.

I began to think of lots of things,about my experience,my mistakes,my embarrassed moment,my love affairs…it's spindle around my head.just turn several rounds,like a suspend balloon,it's there,like endless ghost scared you,leave an unforgettable impression,with disagreeable odour.

i remember the moment he stared at me,my shattered home,i play blocks with a group of children,we are play a relayrace,put one stone block to be a tower one by one and he passed by,he noted to me,i didn't say hello to him,just smile to cover my inside shameless.used to be a person of vanity, extremely concern about others eyesight toward me.i pretend i am in a rich family, actually i live in a house next to the street,it was a store,we remedy it as a second layer and in this way we can sleep in,it wasn't high enough,you have to bend your back only in this way you can finally to the second layer through a little lift.so i lie to many and never told people any information about my home.it's a secret. once a girl said"i feel that your home is like a secret,we all don't know"i can only answered with smile,i just don't want the others empathy.i don't want to be a poor girl like that.maybe in this way,i hurt my family members feelings.

to be continued.