Gradually I become wordless

So what should I say today，I assumed a huge burden，and it makes me addle.Summer will come soon，I must attend a blind date and in June I must pass two test with great importance，that is really emergent.

For me，I can see any large progress I made，which make me cant stop thinking whether I give to much leniency to me.My respectable senior said it may bring spate of agony when you try to expand your  frontier，but once you make it you have grown.