第一章 重新找回灵魂-1
Refinding the Soul”“找回”也可以理解为“发现”,因为我们根本没有真正拥有过所谓的“灵魂”,或者“灵魂”并非我们独享,也就不存在“丢失”,只是由于意识的狂妄、霸道和妄想,让我们产生了拥有、约束、禁锢和分离等种种错觉。不过,根据文章的意思,还是顺从习气,权且用“找回”吧。
"My soul, where are you? Do you hear me? I speak, I call you are you there? I have returned, I am here again. I have haken the dust of all the lands frOln my feet, and I have come to you, I am with you. After long years of long wandering, I have come to you again. Should I tell you everything I have seen, experienced, and drunk in? Or do you not want to hear about all the noise of life and the world? But one thing you must know: the one thing I have learned is that one must live this life.
我说:“我的灵魂啊,你在哪里?你能听到我的声音吗?我在说话,我在呼喊你,你在吗?我已经回来了,我又站在这里了。(这非常重要,我回来了!而不是遭遇,而灵魂,就还在那原点中,始终在那里。)我已经抖掉在脚上的所有尘埃,来到你的面前,我和你在一起。经过多年的彷徨,我又回到了你的身边。我能把我看到的、经历到的和品尝到的一切讲给你听吗?抑或,你是否不愿聆听所有来自生命和世界的噪音?(既然是噪音,谁愿意听呢?世间法的喧嚣,除了噪音,还有什么?灵魂又何尝不知道一切,因为何曾须臾离开过你?)但是你应该知道一件事:我已经明白,一个人必须活出自己。
This life is the way, the long sought-after way to the unfatholnable, which we call divine. There is no other way, all other ways are false paths. I found the right way, it led me to you, to my soul. I return, tempered and purified. Do you still know me? How long the separation lasted! Everything has become so different. And how did I find you? How strange my journey was! What words should I use to tell you on what twisted paths a good star has guided me to you? Give me your hand, my almost forgotten soul. How warm the joy at seeing you again, you long isavowed soul. Life has led me back to you. Let us thank the life I have lived for all the happy and all the sad hours, for every joy, for every sadness. My soul, my journey should continue with you. I will wander with you and ascend to my solitude.“
这种生命就是道路,这是一条让人久久追寻、通往深不可测之地的道路。(虽然深不可测,但绝非广受欢迎,或者在知道自己踏上这条路前,也许如此,一旦行在通往深度的路上,分分秒秒,痛苦煎熬,哪怕再迈一步都难比登天,或许还有更大的毁灭在等着你,那是魔鬼和精灵的伎俩,种种幻相,地狱的伪装,世间法的极乐)
我们将之称为神圣。再无其他的道路,因为所有其他的道路都是错误的。我找到了这条正确的道路,它带领我来到你这里,找到我的灵魂。我回来了,平和又纯净。你还认得我吗?我们已经分别太久了!一切都变得如此不同。我如何才能找到你呢?我的经历是多么奇特!我该用什么话向你形容在这一条崎岖的道路上,是那颗美丽的恒星将我引领到你这里?我几乎已经被忘却的灵魂,请把你的双手递给我。能再次看到你,我多么快乐。生命再一次将我带回到你身边,让我们向生命中的悲欢喜乐致以谢意,感谢每一份快乐,感谢每一丝悲伤。我的灵魂啊,我要和你一起走完剩下的旅程。我要和你一起去漫游,登上我的孤独之地。”(深度的探索,注定是一个人孤独的旅程,不可能有任何的同伴,身边似乎有那么多的家亲眷属、同参道友,但内在的体验完全是个性化的,言语皆妄,何况其他。待到成就,更是“会当凌绝顶,一览众山小”,这就是一种孤独而美丽的高峰体验。)