Daily log

Under the current circumstances, there's not much choice.

I want to invest time and energy in myself, but do not know how to do.

Even no direction.

Most of all, I don't believe myself, and couldn't insist on something in most of the time.

In the eyes of others, maybe I'm in the age which can waste of time with no more think of responsibility.

But I'm in such a stress, sometimes I think about it, reflect on myself if I lose the balance of desire and reality.

I always feel like there is a big hole in my heart which swallow my vitality, and leave me alone with endless anxiety and incertitude.

The only thing that can cheer me up is to do something really useful and feel pride of it even many year elapsed.