What can I hold you with?

What can I hold you with?

我用什么才能留住你？

Jorge Luis Borges

博尔赫斯

What can I hold you with?

我用什么才能留住你？

I offer you lean streets,desperate sunsets,the moon of the jagged suburbs.

我给你瘦落的街道，绝望的落日，荒郊的月亮，

I offer you the bitterness of a man who has looked long and long at the lonely moon.

我给你一个久久地望着孤月的人的悲哀。

I offer you my ancestors, my dead men,the ghosts that living men have honoured in marble:

我给你我已死去的祖辈，后人们用大理石祭奠的先魂，

my father's father killed in the frontier of Buenos Aires, two bullets through his lungs, earded and dead, wrapped by his soldiers in the hide of a cow.

我父亲的父亲阵亡于布宜诺斯艾利斯的边境，两颗子弹射穿了他的胸膛，死的时候蓄着胡子，尸体被士兵们用牛皮裹起。

my mother's grandfather-just twentyfour-heading a charge of three hundred men in Peru, now ghosts on vanished horses.

我母亲的祖父，那年才二十四岁，在秘鲁率领三百人冲锋，如今都成了消失的马背上的亡魂。

I offer you whatever insight my books may hold. whatever manliness or humour my life.

我给你我的书中所能蕴含的一切悟力，以及我生活中所能有的男子气概和幽默。

I offer you the loyalty of a man who has never been loyal.

我给你一个从未有过信仰的人的忠诚。

I offer you that kernel of myself that I have saved somehow -the central heart that deals not in words, traffics not with dream and is untouched by time, by joy, by adversities.

我给你我设法保全的我自己的核心 — 不营字造句，不和梦交易，不被时间、欢乐和逆境触动的核心。

I offer you the memory of a yellow rose seen at sunset, years before you were born.

我给你早在你出生前多年的一个傍晚看到的一朵黄玫瑰的记忆。

I offer you explanations of yourself,theories about yourself, authentic and surprising news of yourself.

我给你关于你生命的诠释，关于你自己的理论，你的真实而惊人的存在。

I can give you my loneliness,my darkness,the hunger of my heart.

我给你我的寂寞，我的黑暗，我心的饥渴。

I am trying to bribe you with uncertainty, with danger, with defeat.

我试图用困惑、危险、失败来打动你。

（摘自《另一个，同一个》，博尔赫斯著，王永年译，浙江文艺出版社，2008年2月）