克里希那穆提《生命书》新译（2月2日）：一切嬗变都是内心分裂

你心中有一个念头，令你愉悦，那是你欲望的投射，因为你渴望变成那样子。你是这种面目，但你不喜欢；你想变成那样，因为你喜欢那面目。理想，是一种自我投射，亦即把相反的形象投射到未来，但那根本不是当下面目的对立面，只是你真实面目的延伸，或许稍加改头换面。

心理投射，是一种固执己见；你向投射的方向奋力挣扎，冲突由此而生。……你奋力拼搏，想变成大人物，那人物形象就成了你的一部分，但那个理想形象只是你的心理投射。看吧，心智就是这样自耍把戏！你奋斗，追逐你的誓言、你的投射、你的幻影。你充满暴力，想变得平和，你以平和为理想并为之奋争；但这个理想只是暴力心的投射幻影，只不过换了一个名字而已。

当你看明白这场自我耍弄的把戏，虚幻就被看穿了。你对幻相的追逐心，是一种分裂性力量，一切冲突、嬗变，都是内心分裂。当看清心智自导自演的这场把戏，你的心中唯有如是实相。当心智剥除了一切嬗变、理想、对比与谴责，当心智的结构崩塌，那么如是实相就经历了彻底的转化。只要你还为实相冠名，则你的心与实相之间，就仍有对待关系，总想凭记忆去冠名，心智就是这样精心构造出来的。当冠名心不存在了，则所谓如是实相也消融了。唯在这一转化中，万物融通一如。

——克里希那穆提《生命书：365静心日课》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）

All Becoming Is Disintegration

The mind has an idea, perhaps pleasurable, and it wants to be like that idea, which is a projection of your desire. You are this, which you do not like, and you want to become that, which you like. The ideal is a self-projection; the opposite is an extension of what is; it is not the opposite at all, but a continuity of what is, perhaps somewhat modified.

The projection is self-willed, and conflict is the struggle towards the projection…. You are struggling to become something, and that something is part of yourself. The ideal is your own projection. See how the mind has played a trick upon itself. You are struggling after words, pursuing your own projection, your own shadow. You are violent, and you are struggling to become nonviolent, the ideal; but the ideal is a projection of what is, only under a different name.

When you are aware of this trick that you have played upon yourself, then the false as the false is seen. The struggle towards an illusion is the disintegrating factor. All conflict, all becoming is disintegration. When there is an awareness of this trick that the mind has played upon itself, then there is only what is. When the mind is stripped of all becoming, of all ideals, of all comparison and condemnation, when its own structure has collapsed, then the what is has undergone complete transformation. As long as there is the naming of what is, there is relationship between the mind and what is; but when this naming process—which is memory, the very structure of the mind—is not, then what is is not. In this transformation alone is there integration.

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