Intense

The energy and the atmosphere around me has been like quite intense these two days. Crazy busy, my neighbor downstairs was tested positive of COVID yesterday afternoon and I brought her lunch today which is, totally unimaginable several months ago. I went to bad 2:00 a.m. in the morning today, all day meeting, over work again, got my mom's call at 8:00p.m. while I was still working that she has a fever and the temperature is like 39 degrees, and, my brother just recovered from his fever which has lasted for 2 days and it was also as high as 39 degrees. What's more, my second niece, the lovely little girl, got a fever as well. Her sister hasn't been feeling well in her throat for quite a while like nearly one month long already.

I am still working and this busy situation will last for the rest of this week.

This is tough for me, especially knowing the fact that my families are suffering from the fever or flu and I can't be with them, this really upsets me, makes me feel anxious, guilty, helpless, and uneasy. subconsciously there is even a feeling in my heart that this is all my fault.

We all know what is going on but none of us mentioned it, as if in this way it will make things easier.

I will be strong and protect myself for my families. For the first time that I feel that it is my obligation to keep healthy.

Always make full preparations for unexpected situations, especially when the so called unexpected situation is becoming more and more expectable.

My heart is with you.