future,where u are?

when I get up this morning,it already 12 am.I Did the same thing,folding up my quilt,washing my face,and brushing my teeth,then go to have Lunch by my own.After finished,I went back to my room,lying down in my bed then find a moive to watch.And right now,I ate my dinner,I dont know what to do.I really wanna find Something to catch,but I failed.Nothing can do,I dont have massive friends,no amount of hobbies,I am bored,nobody knows,I suddenly would like to kill myself at some times,cause I cannot find where my future is.who can help and do me a favor,tell me what should I do.