2022-06-09 Life is hard

today is a busy day, i would rather have had more time to write diary, but why it lasted to  11:30 to write english diary . i really need to think about this question. Five minutes ago one colleague still sent messages to ask me questions. life is so hard. actually if i really do a deep thinking, i would find that today i spent so much time doing useless communication. two week ago, when the pm explained the requirements to us for nearly 2 hours.we did not follow it one by one and thought it very clearly and the result is that what we did is not what she hopes us to do .and we had to redo it. many things we did not write down and became  documents, so that later  problems and many things can not be verified, after some discussion, we also think it is strange why we thought like that at that time.
what made us thinking like that. it is reall weired. the brain is limited. the thinking can not be saved ,only the words written in paper or the voice ,videos recorded and saved in the computers  can be looked as the evidences.

do not guess each other ， do not prejudge her prejudge . that is not funny. time is limited. another failure point is today i should refuse another team's colleagues's inviting of  attending an interview. that is awkward  

it is really wasting time.sometimes i really feel so sad.for guys like us are living paycheck to paycheck,trying to make ends meet all the days. When is the happy end？

 suddenly some  movie  lines appeared in my mind,

a little girl asked the killer "Life is always hard or only when you are just a kid? "

"Always like this" the killer said.