第五章 未来的地狱之旅-5
Because I was caught up in the spirit of this time, precisely what happened to me on this night had to happen to me, namely that the spirit of the depths erupted with force, and swept away the spirit of this time with a powerful wave. But the spirit of the depths had gained this power, because I had spoken to my soul during 25 nights in the desert and I had given her all my love and submission. But during the 25 days, I gave all my love and submission to things, to men, and to the thoughts of this time. I went into the desert only at night.
由于我曾经被时代精神困住，确切地说，今夜发生的事情必定会在我身上发生，即是深度精神强烈爆发，用一股强力的冲击波将时代精神扫荡。但是深度精神已经获得这种力量，因为在这25个夜晚中，我一直在（我的）沙漠中对我的灵魂讲话，把我所有的爱和服从都给了她。而在这25天的白天中，我把自己所有的爱和服从都给了这个时代的世事、人伦和思想。我只在夜里来到沙漠中。（究竟哪个是夜晚，哪个是白天？或醒或梦，谁能了然？这样的平衡如何达到，在路程中，时代精神和深度精神，总是矛盾和相抗。）
Thus，can you differentiate sick and divine delusion. Whoever does the one and does without the other you may call sick since he is out of balance.
只有这样，你才能够区分病态和神圣的幻觉（有区别吗？几乎没有区别，所以，我们无非病人）。任何做到其中一个而未做到另一个的人，你都可以将他称为病态，因为他失去了平衡（而这种失衡，却是常态）。
（什所谓“做到其中一个”，就是前文提到的晚上和灵魂交流，给予灵魂爱和服从，而白天按照时代精神经纶世务，奉献爱和服务，用这样交替的方式，实现二者的平衡。多少人与此类似，试图用些微的“善行”，来平衡卑鄙、恶毒和贪婪，可能吗？便这点所谓的“善”，都充满了恶臭。所以，穷人最后一文钱、一碗饭的布施，大于须弥山，真心故也。）
But who can withstand fear when the divine intoxication and madness comes to him? Love, soul, and God are beautiful and terrible. The ancients brought over some of the beauty of God into this world, and this world became so beautiful that it appeared to the spirit of the time to be fulfillment, and better than the bosom of the Godhead. The frightfulness and cruelty of the world lay under wraps and in the depths of our hearts. If the spirit of the depths seizes you, you will feel the cruelty and cry out in torment. The spirit of the depths is pregnant with ice, fire, and death. You are right to fear the spirit of the depths, as he is full of horror.
但是当神圣的陶醉和疯狂出现在一个人身上的时候，谁能够承受这样的恐惧？爱、灵魂和神既美丽又可怕。古人把神的某些美丽面带到世界上，这个世界变得如此美丽，以致于对于时代精神而言似乎意味着满足，而且比神的怀抱还要美好。世界上的恐惧和残暴都被秘密包裹起来，留在我们内心的深处。如果你被深度精神控制住，你会感受到残暴并在折磨中哭喊。深度精神孕育寒冰、烈火和死亡。你理所当然对于深度精神深感恐惧，因为他的确充满恐怖。（享乐是美好的，却是通向地狱之门；苦难是煎熬的，却是上升天堂之钥。在陀思妥耶夫斯基的作品中，伟大的人性，总在受侮辱与受损害的，在最卑微处闪光，但这并不是让我们崇拜苦难，嫌富爱贫，更添执着，“无益苦行须远离”。而是面对一切磨难，作出离想、救赎想；对一切弱者和贫贱者，作平等想、慈悲想；对于一切逸乐恶俗，心生恐惧。若真如如观之，如如受之，无可不可，无非厌离，厌离也无，如如法喜，得大自在。）
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