Life is too short to be afraid

Have you ever noticed that most young people are shier and more unsociable in the real world. I honestly am part of them.

Don't know how long it has happened to my life that I became hate talking with people and getting along with people in real world. It turns out to be my achilles' heel and I am afraid of being accepted it in my deep mind. For the most time,I either stay at home alone or I'm going to browse online.I laid off my social ecosystem and seldom liaised my contacts. It seems a lot like the second I get away from the real world I can be carefree. But There's still a quivering vocie recalling me that I am not free from the nightmares.

"Life is too short to be a bitch."That's what I found in a documentary series The apprentice. Enlightened by this line I just want to express my attitude. See,the problem is not a problem,it depends on your attitude on the problem.

I just felt extremely anxious and depressed a couple of days ago. I had to deal with the matters what the coronavirus caused,I have to be prepared to all the stuff related to go back to school. But when it came to approaching the date I worried,all the things reversed.I was told that I was not allowed to go back. The trivial things were suddenly disappeared. It seems like I used all my one and only time to care about the things that I didn't have to pay attention to. It's just ridiculous.

I am sick of communicating with people and then people are just return some weird and indifferent looks to me.That's what I saw. Why do I have to conform with other people? I am not holding that responsibility right now and it's supposed to be forever.

Same thing happened hundreds of times. About one or two months ago, one of my subjects' grades are not very good,I wanted to know why it happened but I didn't have the nerve to do it. So I automatically thought of asking my older sister for a suggest. She encouraged me to find the reason from my teacher. Then I did what my sister said and the apprehension got off my chest. My older sister said,"Do not be a coward in real life when you are bold online." That is like a hammer hit on my head and lets me understand something.

I am still not very good at being a brave person but I am stepping in that way every day.Still, I have to acknowledge that I can't get it over with but at least I can say something that I want to.