背影 朱自清 Beiiyigh Zhuy Ziw Qigs

Beiiyigh Zhuy Ziw Qigs

    Yuw fuuqin bu xiagjianp yih erh nian yur l, w zui buneg waagjii d s tade beiiyigh. Na nian dogtian, zuvmur six l, fuuqin d chaishirz y jiaoxiez l, zyegshi hoxz bu danxig d rizi, w cog Beeijigl dao Xxuzhoul, davsuan genzhe fuuqin bensag hoijia. Dao Xxuzhoul jianp zhaow fuuqin, kaanjianp man yuanl llagjibl d dogxil, youh hiagki zuvmur, bujinq suusucp dd leuxia yanvleis. Fuuqin sho, "shix yih rruci, bubiq nnangoz, haaozai tian wu joeren zh lu!"

    hoijia biaanmaij diianzhitb, fuuqin huanz l kuikog; youh zieqianj band l sagshix. Zyexie rizi, jiazhog guagjigh henvshi canvdans, yiban weiile sagshix, yiban weiile fuuqin fuuxianm. Sagshix wwanbid, fuuqin yao dao Nnanjigl mmoushix, w y yao huiz Beeijigl niaanshu, women bianw ttogxig.

    Dao Nnanjigl shih, you ppegyour yuey qu yyouguagz, gouliuz l yi ri; dih erh ri syagwuhz bianw xup duujiags dao Puvkou, siawuhz syagche beil qu. Fuuqin yinwei shix mag, ben yih shodig busog w, jiaok liioguanl li yi g srushik d crafagm peid w ttogqu. Ta zaiisan drufuk crafagm, shenw s zivxib. Danw ta zhogyu bu faagxin, pa crafagm bu tovtiey; pop crouchuz l yihui. Qqishib w na nian yih eershih suih, Beiligl yih llaiwagz goz liag san cih, s mmeiyou srenme yaujiny d l. Ta crouchuz l yihui, zhogyu joedig hhaishi ziigi sog w qu. w liag san huiz quank ta bubiq qu; ta zhiw sho, "buyaugin, tamen qu buhao!"

    Women goz l jiags, jin l chezhanz. W maaipiao, ta mag z zhaukan xxiglim. Xxiglim taib do l, dei xiagl giaofur xig xie hiaofeij, cai ke gooqu. Ta bianw youh mag z h tamen giagziaqan. W naashih zhenshi cogmigh goofen, zog juex ta shohua buda piauliagh, ziigi chazuik buke. Danw ta zhogyu giagdig l ziaqianj; jiu sog w syagche. Ta gei w jiandt dig l kaod chemenm d yi zhagq yimzi; w jiag ta gei w zod d ziys mao daayiy pu hao zooweir. Ta zhuk w luushag hiaoxin, yeeli yao gigxigxs xie, buyao syouliags. Youh druto crafagm haaohao zhauyig w. W xinli aanxiaox tade yuzh; tamen zhiw reender qianj, to tamen zhib s bai to! errqiew w zyeyag da neanjiiy d ren, nnandaol hai buneg liaulix ziigi me? Aik, w sianzai hiagxiag, naashih zhenshi taib cogmigh l!

    W shodaol, "baabar, ni zou bak." ta wagp che wai kan l kan, sho, "w mai gige jumzzi qu. Ni ziuzai civdi, buyao zooudog." W kan naabian yueetai d zyalanm wai you gige maij dogxil d deg z guuker. zooudao naabian yueetai, xup chuangoz tiiedaol, xup tiaoz siaqu youh paf syagqu. Fuuqin s yi g panptzi, zou gooqu ziiran yao feiishix xie. W benvlai yao qu d, ta buken, drihao rag ta qu. W kaanjianp ta daid z heibuy hiaomaoy, chuan z heibuy da mavguay, shenqigc buy meanpaoy, ppanshanz dd zooudao tiiedaol bian, maanmanx taanshen siaqu, shagw buda nan. Kevshi ta chuangoz tiiedaol, yao ppashag naabian yueetai, jiu bu rrogyiid l. Ta yog liiagshou pand z syagmian, liiagjiaoz zaiw siagshag sod; ta ffeipanpt d shenzi xiagl zol weiqigd, hianchu nuvliq d yagzi. Zyeshih w kaanjianp tade beiiyigh, wode leis hen kuai dd liu sialai l. W ganvjiny shidc ganw l leis, pa ta kaanjianp, y pa bbieren kaanjianp. W zaiw siagwai kan shih, ta yih baod l zhuhog d jumzzi wagp huiz zou l. Goz tiiedaol shih, ta xianb jiag jumzzi sanvfagd zai diishag, ziigi maanmanx ppaxia, zaiw bauki jumzzi zou. Dao zyebian shih, w ganvjiny qu chand ta. Ta h w zooudao cheshag, jiag jumzzi yiguvnaoer faagzai wode pi daayiy shag. Yyushi pupud yiy shag d nnitu, xinli hen qigsogb shiwde, goz yihui sho, "w zou l; dao naabian llaixinr!" w wagp z ta zou chuqu. Ta zou l gih buz, huiz goztou kaanjianp w, sho, "zinqu bak, livbian mmeiren." deg tade beiiyigh huunruz llailai wagvwagz d ren li, zaiw draobuzrao l, w bianw zinlai zooxia, wode yanvleis youh lai l.

    Jinz ginian lai, fuuqin h w doushi dogbenxizoou, jiazhog guagjigh s yiri buru yiri. Ta shaunian chuwai mmousheg, dduliq zhichid, zod l xuvdo daashix. Navzhi laaojigt que rruci toitagl! Ta cyumu shaghuaix, ziiran qig buneg ziiyih. Qig yub yu zhog, ziiran yao fa zh yu wai; jiatigl sovxiet bianw waagwagz chud ta zh nu. Ta daiz w zianjians butog wagvri. Danw zuiijinz liag nian d bujianp, ta zhogyu waagque wode buhao, drishi diaanjii z w, diaanjii z wode erzi. W beil lai hou, ta xiey l yi xinr gei w, xinr zhog shodaol, "w shenti ppig’an, weixs bagpzi ttegtogx liihaij, juq zhucc ttibiy, zhudo bubianw, daayuey daaquuzhiqi buyuanz yiwy." w duk dao civchul, zai jigyigtj d leiiguag zhog, youh kaanjianp na ffeipanpt d, qigc buy meanpaoy, hei buy mavguay d beiiyigh. Aik! W buzhi hheshih zaiw neg yuw ta xiagjianp!

背影  朱自清

    与父亲不相见已二年余了，我最不能忘记的是他的背影。那年冬天，祖母死了，父亲的差使也交卸了，正是祸不单行的日子，我从北京到徐州，打算跟着父亲奔丧回家。到徐州见着父亲，看见满院狼藉的东西，又想起祖母，不禁簌簌地流下眼泪。父亲说，“事已如此，不必难过，好在天无绝人之路！”   

    回家变卖典质，父亲还了亏空；又借钱办了丧事。这些日子，家中光景很是惨淡，一半为了丧事，一半为了父亲赋闲。丧事完毕，父亲要到南京谋事，我也要回北京念书，我们便同行。   

    到南京时，有朋友约去游逛，勾留了一日；第二日上午便须渡江到浦口，下午上车北去。父亲因为事忙，本已说定不送我，叫旅馆里一个熟识的茶房陪我同去。他再三嘱咐茶房，甚是仔细。但他终于不放心，怕茶房不妥帖；颇踌躇了一会。其实我那年已二十岁，北京已来往过两三次，是没有甚么要紧的了。他踌躇了一会，终于决定还是自己送我去。我两三回劝他不必去；他只说，“不要紧，他们去不好！”   

    我们过了江，进了车站。我买票，他忙着照看行李。行李太多了，得向脚夫行些小费，才可过去。他便又忙着和他们讲价钱。我那时真是聪明过分，总觉他说话不大漂亮，非自己插嘴不可。但他终于讲定了价钱；就送我上车。他给我拣定了靠车门的一张椅子；我将他给我做的紫毛大衣铺好座位。他嘱我路上小心，夜里要警醒些，不要受凉。又嘱托茶房好好照应我。我心里暗笑他的迂；他们只认得钱，托他们直是白托！而且我这样大年纪的人，难道还不能料理自己么？唉，我现在想想，那时真是太聪明了！   

    我说道，“爸爸，你走吧。”他望车外看了看，说，“我买几个橘子去。你就在此地，不要走动。”我看那边月台的栅栏外有几个卖东西的等着顾客。走到那边月台，须穿过铁道，须跳下去又爬上去。父亲是一个胖子，走过去自然要费事些。我本来要去的，他不肯，只好让他去。我看见他戴着黑布小帽，穿着黑布大马褂，深青布棉袍，蹒跚地走到铁道边，慢慢探身下去，尚不大难。可是他穿过铁道，要爬上那边月台，就不容易了。他用两手攀着上面，两脚再向上缩；他肥胖的身子向左微倾，显出努力的样子。这时我看见他的背影，我的泪很快地流下来了。我赶紧拭干了泪，怕他看见，也怕别人看见。我再向外看时，他已抱了朱红的橘子望回走了。过铁道时，他先将橘子散放在地上，自己慢慢爬下，再抱起橘子走。到这边时，我赶紧去搀他。他和我走到车上，将橘子一股脑儿放在我的皮大衣上。于是扑扑衣上的泥土，心里很轻松似的，过一会说，“我走了；到那边来信！”我望着他走出去。他走了几步，回过头看见我，说，“进去吧，里边没人。”等他的背影混入来来往往的人里，再找不着了，我便进来坐下，我的眼泪又来了。   

    近几年来，父亲和我都是东奔西走，家中光景是一日不如一日。他少年出外谋生，独力支持，做了许多大事。那知老境却如此颓唐！他触目伤怀，自然情不能自已。情郁于中，自然要发之于外；家庭琐屑便往往触他之怒。他待我渐渐不同往日。但最近两年的不见，他终于忘却我的不好，只是惦记着我，惦记着我的儿子。我北来后，他写了一信给我，信中说道，“我身体平安，惟膀子疼痛利害，举箸提笔，诸多不便，大约大去之期不远矣。”我读到此处，在晶莹的泪光中，又看见那肥胖的，青布棉袍，黑布马褂的背影。唉！我不知何时再能与他相见！