开放的准备 Ready for Open

By Oliver

每天早晨送孩子上学的路上，是我最容易焦虑的时候，排得长长的车龙，拥挤的路面，不看红绿灯乱穿马路的电动车，突然变红的红绿灯都构成了我焦虑的原因。焦虑的时候，我感觉自己的脖子和肩膀都是紧的。

一次开车的时候，本来通过绿灯的时间很充裕，前面的车在没有阻拦的情况下，缓缓蠕动，直到绿灯变成了红灯，心中无数咒骂升起。一个念头忽然闪过：“我怎会是这样？我的愤怒从何而来？”念头闪过的时候，心里瞬时就清凉了下来。下一个念头就是：“因为我没有做好准备。”“没有做好接纳一辆慢慢前行的车挡在我面前的准备，也没有准备好接受绿灯会变成红灯的可能性。”“这些事情不是再正常不过的事情吗？”

“是的，不过我还没有为开放的接纳当下做好足够的准备。”

原来，我需要为随时对当下保持开放，做好随时的准备。

这算是智慧吗？

Every morning，on the way of sending my son to school, was the most upset time of my day. The traffic jam, the bicycles trespass the road without waiting for the traffic signal, the green light suddenly turning into red, all these stuffs make me nervous and angry. My neck is soured, and my shoulders are tight.

Once in the morning, the road was wide open, and the light not far away was green, all seemed very good, until the car in front of me unreasonably drove in slow motion, and the traffic light turned into red. So many 'F' word came out of my mind.

Suddenly a thought crossed my mind——"What happened to me? Why am I so angry?" And then, my fury calmed down.

The answer was "because I am not fully prepared for this. I am not ready for the slow motion car, or for the red light."

"Isn't it normal that things always happen like that?"

"Yes, but I guess I did not get myself ready for that. And I should keep myself ready for being open enough for NOW."

Is that wisdom?